Wednesday, 25 June 2014

Fear is taking over

I keep telling the people around me not to let fear take control of their lives but this time, I need to have a little talk to myself about the same topic.

If I had the choice of choosing a power, I would choose the power of travelling back to the past. I would travel back to 13 November 2013; the day I injured my knee.

I hated myself from that day. I kept hunting myself with questions why did I try to save the ball? What if I cant play again? Will I be able play for next year's season? and maybe a few more.

Some nights, I would cry. You know that feeling when you want to do something so badly and you cant...yea...that's how I felt.

5 years of my life was devoted to netball. I love it and not being able to play, sucks. I miss being on court.

Being on court is the best thing ever. 1 hour of my life is just focused on making the school proud. I can just forget about everything and focus on the game.

Today, Im still wondering if I will ever play for next year's season. What im thinking is, 70% yes I will come back strong, 30% what if I get injured agian. Just seeing my teammates jumping and landing scares me. 

All im hoping is, 13 November 2014, will be the day I finally get back.

No comments:

Post a Comment