Im the failure

Everyone around me, the people I love,
Hurt
Because of me
I hate it.  I fucking do.
I blame myself for it. 
I don't know what to do.
Only my friend can help me.
But now that friend is down in the...trash, being destroyed.
Now, i don't what to do.
Just cry, let my drama out.
In the from of tears and sadness:(